how i became the phat vegan

so over the course of the last two years i have spent a lot of time watching documentaries, reading articles, looking over blogs, and searching #vegan on instagram. here in arkansas that is really not as common as you would think. (i joke) people here want things smothered, covered in butter, gravy soaked, and lets be real who doesn't love bacon? but i was fat, tired, depressed, and ready for change. so obviously after about ten years of crash diets i thought about making a life style change and became vegetarian. at first, it worked. i was thrilled week after week i lost weight. but then after about 60 pounds (yes i had 60 to lose and to get real about 60 more to go) after 60 pounds everything came to a halt. i was tired again, i did not want to work out, my skin was terrible, i was depressed, and so upset with my body. i thought my body was rejecting the idea of giving up meat. i thought my body was trying to defeat me before my battle was done. so i went back and forth a bit. ate some chicken, then felt guilty, then at some spinach, and still felt like shit. i knew i had to make life style changes and knew that i had to be honest with myself. i started therapy. that was weird. but that is a topic for another day. after going through every food documentary on netflix i knew what i had to do. i had to cut out cheese, cows milk, eggs, and meat. cut it all out. i certainly will not lie. this was not easy. i cried about cheese. i want that last statement to sink in. i cried over cheese. i cried over cheese dip. i cried over all things processed that i wanted so much. but slowly i felt better. slowly i was learning to adjust. i found out there were things called spaghetti squash, i learned about leeks, i read about the pros and cons of soy. i learned about the best way to take care of my body. my journey is still at the beginning. everyday i have to fight the urge not to binge on chips. not to drink so much soda (which i am currently trying to give up). to learn to eat to live not live to eat.

with this blog i want to share my journey, give away helpful tools, show you that you can make biscuits and gravy (vegan style...yeah i said it), and hopefully meet a new community of people who want to get healthy and maybe save a chicken or two. 

there is a lot more to my journey so please stick around and look out for more on how i became the phat vegan.